Cautiously Optimistic
So, since the first post so much has changed. We filled out the paperwork and answered most of the questions. We still needed to go back and look at them again, but for the most part that was done. I had put on Matthew's to do list to go get his social security card (insert eye roll). While I was waiting for that to happen, life happened. Some issues within his youth group, the Santa Fe shooting, you know, not fun stuff. All I kept thinking was. "Maybe we don't need a child. Maybe we were suppose to be there for the ones that we know. The ones that come in and out of the church that need us." All I kept thinking is that the world sucked. We kind of sort of decided to put the paperwork in a drawer. I needed to pray over this.
Fast forward 2 months. Nothing had been done. It is near the end of May and we had just found out that one of my closest friends was finally going to get to adopt the sweet baby she had been fostering for over a year. Emotions came over me and the thought of fostering came up again. But I was so busy with the end of the year that I pushed it aside. Just as I sent out the invitation for her shower we were throwing her I got a message from a mutual friend. She thought that the invitation was for me. Once I explained, she asked me where we were at in the process. I told her that we kind of put everything on hold. All she said was, "I will definitely pray for you guys." Within 3 MINUTES my mom called. Now, you need to know that I usually call my mom and it is almost 9:00 PM. I saw her name and I said to Matthew, "This can't be good." As I am talking to my mom, Matthew came back with a bottle of water and was standing in front of me. I finally told my mom to hold on to ask Matthew what he was doing. He thought it was bad news so he went and got me a water. I laughed and said everything was ok, plus if I was upset he is suppose to bring me tea (Big Bang Theory reference).
My mom proceeds to tell me that a co-worker, Anna, had a neighbor that was about 20 and was pregnant. She had overheard my mom talking to her boss about fostering and was wondering if we were interested. I was shocked. I didn't know what to say. I told her I needed to talk to Matthew and I would call her back. Needless to say that is not what Matthew thought we were going to be talking about. We agreed to to give her my email address and see where it would go from there. I sent a message to my friend and asked if she said a prayer right then. She said, "I did." I usually write it down but tonight I prayed right then." In my head all I kept thinking is that God has plans and we need to start listening.
Days went by and I had not heard anything. My mom suggested I send her an email as an ice breaker, but I thought I would give her a little more time. I didn't want to seem to desperate. I guess Anna got impatient and went over to their house with donuts and talked to them. She said she was just nervous. She said, " How do you write someone and say do you want my baby?"
It was Friday, June 1st and we were watching Matthew's cousins twins. When I got a phone call to see of I could leave work early to come and help him all I could think was, "And we want to have our own?" I got home and he had got them in the pack in play and asleep. That was huge. We played hard that weekend and had so much fun. It was hard. We had summer kick-off with the youthies. He had new interns. And did I mention that we had 2 two year olds for 4 days? On Saturday, I saw that I got an email and the title was "My name is 'Kristina'" It was simple. Basically, how about you call me on Thursday so we can better understand each other. THURSDAY? That was so far away. I emailed her back telling her how hard I thought it must have been to send the email and then I told her about Matthew and myself. I felt like I was filling out a dating survey. I gave her my cell phone number and told her to text me if she wanted to talk or had any questions. That was it. No more conversation.
What am I supposed to do? Do I really have to wait until Thursday? I was leaving that morning to go to a conference in San Antonio and of course I had not packed. I was texting back and forth with Amber about our new secretary. I set the phone down and went to pack. I heard the text message and thought I will check in a minute. I walked by my phone and thought, "Crap I forgot to see what Amber said." I checked it and it was an unknown number. I thought it was our new secretary that we just hired. As I started to read I was very confused. She was apologizing for taking so long to respond, but didn't want to make it sound like a sales pitch. But then I got to the words, "I sincerely want you to know I want to make you a mother." Wait! What?!? My brain had to completely change gears. I realized this was 'Kristina'. I burst into tears. Could this really be happening? I looked at the time and realized that Matthew was probably still in staff meeting so I forwarded him the message and told him to call me when he was done. I called 4 people and none of them answered. Matthew called and I said well...he said, "You made me cry during staff. Do you have any other details?" Pause story for background knowledge...My mom and Anna thought the baby was due around the beginning of February. That was wrong. She is due in November. Matthew's birthday is November 26th. So his birthday is either the day before, the day of, or the day after Thanksgiving. And then his Dad and Uncle's birthday is the day after. He always says we celebrate his birthday for 3 minutes and then it is onto Thanksgiving....Resume story....I said well the due date that we were told was wrong. She is not due in February. She is due November 26th. His response..."shut the hell up. Are you serious?" I laughed and said, "She is due in November, but I don't know the day. I just threw in the 26th for fun." He didn't find it as funny as I did.
Excitement has set in, but I am trying to be cautiously optimistic until Thursday.
Fast forward 2 months. Nothing had been done. It is near the end of May and we had just found out that one of my closest friends was finally going to get to adopt the sweet baby she had been fostering for over a year. Emotions came over me and the thought of fostering came up again. But I was so busy with the end of the year that I pushed it aside. Just as I sent out the invitation for her shower we were throwing her I got a message from a mutual friend. She thought that the invitation was for me. Once I explained, she asked me where we were at in the process. I told her that we kind of put everything on hold. All she said was, "I will definitely pray for you guys." Within 3 MINUTES my mom called. Now, you need to know that I usually call my mom and it is almost 9:00 PM. I saw her name and I said to Matthew, "This can't be good." As I am talking to my mom, Matthew came back with a bottle of water and was standing in front of me. I finally told my mom to hold on to ask Matthew what he was doing. He thought it was bad news so he went and got me a water. I laughed and said everything was ok, plus if I was upset he is suppose to bring me tea (Big Bang Theory reference).
My mom proceeds to tell me that a co-worker, Anna, had a neighbor that was about 20 and was pregnant. She had overheard my mom talking to her boss about fostering and was wondering if we were interested. I was shocked. I didn't know what to say. I told her I needed to talk to Matthew and I would call her back. Needless to say that is not what Matthew thought we were going to be talking about. We agreed to to give her my email address and see where it would go from there. I sent a message to my friend and asked if she said a prayer right then. She said, "I did." I usually write it down but tonight I prayed right then." In my head all I kept thinking is that God has plans and we need to start listening.
Days went by and I had not heard anything. My mom suggested I send her an email as an ice breaker, but I thought I would give her a little more time. I didn't want to seem to desperate. I guess Anna got impatient and went over to their house with donuts and talked to them. She said she was just nervous. She said, " How do you write someone and say do you want my baby?"
It was Friday, June 1st and we were watching Matthew's cousins twins. When I got a phone call to see of I could leave work early to come and help him all I could think was, "And we want to have our own?" I got home and he had got them in the pack in play and asleep. That was huge. We played hard that weekend and had so much fun. It was hard. We had summer kick-off with the youthies. He had new interns. And did I mention that we had 2 two year olds for 4 days? On Saturday, I saw that I got an email and the title was "My name is 'Kristina'" It was simple. Basically, how about you call me on Thursday so we can better understand each other. THURSDAY? That was so far away. I emailed her back telling her how hard I thought it must have been to send the email and then I told her about Matthew and myself. I felt like I was filling out a dating survey. I gave her my cell phone number and told her to text me if she wanted to talk or had any questions. That was it. No more conversation.
What am I supposed to do? Do I really have to wait until Thursday? I was leaving that morning to go to a conference in San Antonio and of course I had not packed. I was texting back and forth with Amber about our new secretary. I set the phone down and went to pack. I heard the text message and thought I will check in a minute. I walked by my phone and thought, "Crap I forgot to see what Amber said." I checked it and it was an unknown number. I thought it was our new secretary that we just hired. As I started to read I was very confused. She was apologizing for taking so long to respond, but didn't want to make it sound like a sales pitch. But then I got to the words, "I sincerely want you to know I want to make you a mother." Wait! What?!? My brain had to completely change gears. I realized this was 'Kristina'. I burst into tears. Could this really be happening? I looked at the time and realized that Matthew was probably still in staff meeting so I forwarded him the message and told him to call me when he was done. I called 4 people and none of them answered. Matthew called and I said well...he said, "You made me cry during staff. Do you have any other details?" Pause story for background knowledge...My mom and Anna thought the baby was due around the beginning of February. That was wrong. She is due in November. Matthew's birthday is November 26th. So his birthday is either the day before, the day of, or the day after Thanksgiving. And then his Dad and Uncle's birthday is the day after. He always says we celebrate his birthday for 3 minutes and then it is onto Thanksgiving....Resume story....I said well the due date that we were told was wrong. She is not due in February. She is due November 26th. His response..."shut the hell up. Are you serious?" I laughed and said, "She is due in November, but I don't know the day. I just threw in the 26th for fun." He didn't find it as funny as I did.
Excitement has set in, but I am trying to be cautiously optimistic until Thursday.
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